Monday, June 29, 2009

Saying Sorry in Advance...

Why? Because I'm quitting smoking, and already know what a nasty, irritable bitch I will be to those that see me the most often.. LOL. Of course today is my first day, and yes, it's hard to quit, as I've been really focusing on it all morning, so that makes it pretty tough. Plus, I already feel the "nic-fit" as my heart is pounding in my chest, as my addicted self is craving a smoke. Yes, anyone can list tons and tons of reasons why smoking is bad, and I used to just reply "I love living dangerously!" It was my way of avoiding negative confrontation about it. I know later today will come the shaking I've gotten the numerous times before. This was usually the time I broke down and bought a pack (or when other's that lived with me got me one cause I was too insane to deal with.. lol) I have to do it this time. I seriously just can't AFFORD it anymore. When I think about the money I've wasted over the last 20+ years of smoking, it makes me crazy. I was hooked in my early teens, and it just seems to get worse and worse, and with the price increasing steadily over the years, it's not something I'm willing to go into debt over because of this stupid, idiotic habit. Every time I've tried to quit, I went back to it, smoking more than I did before! It's crazy. I know in a smoking cessation I took years ago, they said when you get the urge, do some exercise, because it will increase your heart rate and give you that "rush" as it releases some of the same endorphins that smoking does. Not sure how that's going to work AT work, but I'm sure I can think of things to get my mind off.

Anywho, I'm rambling. Wish me luck, or steer clear of me! hahaha! Have a great week!!

9 comments:

  1. Go Cher Go!! You can do it! Quitting is very difficult (I quit smoking about 11 years ago) but you can do it and you will so glad you did!!

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  2. Yahoo Cher! YES, it will be hard but think of what you can buy with the money you save.. early retirement maybe!!! OR, a trip to Hawaii! OK, that is for me!

    Seriously, use the exercises to work off the frustration & all. Maybe you will do more than expected!

    Also, from a person that saw my mother-in-law die from small cell cancer which is directly related to smoking AND she had smoked as long as you, I don't think you want to go thru that. It was awful!

    Hang in there Cher! Find things that you can do when you get crazed.. maybe bring a punching bag into work & get fit arms & core at the same time!!!!

    We are with you!

    PS: I am a bitc*h & I am not even stopping smoking BUT I do have hormone issues. OK, I was that way before the hormone issues! :-)

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  3. Well it looks like Trainer Shauna has said it all! As for me, I lit a cigarette once when I was 16, but that's it. I dealt with bitches before, so we can still be buddies. LOL!

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  4. Cheryl, try QuitNet... it worked for me when I quit smoking. I've been free of it for 4 years now. I can't believe it's been that long...

    QuitNet is free.

    http://www.quitnet.com

    And... I'm proud of you. :)

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  5. thanks gals!! i appreciate it.

    carrie.. i get their emails every day, and have been for months. it's just one more thing i gotta read and follow.. lol.

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  6. I didn't even know you did? To be able to smoke and do that workouts that trainer had you do? I am impressed. Good for you. You can do it.

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  7. you can do it girl!!! i have faith in you. i know you can do whatever you put your mind to. *Hugs*

    love ya girl!

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  8. I quit yesterday too. I couldn't do it on a weekday when I had to go to work, I have to do so much exercise to even have a crappy night's sleep. Nothing like a 5 hour hike, far away from any source of cigarettes, to subdue me and make me content to relax. I think it helps a lot. Tonight I take melatonin.

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  9. Wow! Congratulations! Quitting is a very hard thing to do, both me and my S.O. used to be heavy smokers, so I've been through it on both sides (the one quitting and the one supporting the person quitting.)

    You can do it! Good luck!

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