Thursday, February 19, 2009

ignorance is bliss

I guess I will never understand some people. I'm not sure if it's because I cannot see things on their level, or that I refuse to go to their level. I guess I have to give some credit to my family upbringing, as some of their christian views of "do unto others" really stuck with me. I've always treated people, even my enemies, better than they would ever think of treating me. I know I'm a good person, with a compassionate heart, and a good head on her shoulders. True there may be things in my life that some don't agree with, or couldn't see doing themselves, but then again, it makes me all the more tolerable and understanding of people and their place in my life.

I think sometimes people see me as this pillar of strength, but I do have feelings, and I hurt and get hurt. I usually rationalize things to make them easier to cope with, but in no way does it mean that I'm not capable of getting my heart broke.

I'm a vault when it comes to people's privacy, and I've always lent an ear, or a shoulder, and been a mother hen in a way to friends because sometimes, they need to hear from someone else what they are already thinking themselves. Doesn't matter who's friends with who, or friends with me and not them, it just doesn't matter. I won't discuss someone else's business. If it directly affects ME, then yeah, I will, but things that have no effect on me or my life, marriage, child, etc., it's all trivial to me, and kept in complete confidence. When friends are down, I always try to get them to see the brighter side to life, even if it's only a dim hue in the corner. Just getting them to smile when they've been crying, I know in that moment, I made them feel good.

I don't get off on making people miserable. I don't get off on watching people suffer, or beat them when they are already down. Seems to be a trend around here, and I seriously do NOT get it. What do they get out of it? Some sick twisted pleasure? Something that makes them feel better about their own insecure lives?

I'm rambling now... ugh!! Like I said, I'll never get it. I'll never comprehend it, and in this case, ignorance IS bliss!!!

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